It’s Valentine’s Day!!!

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!!! or for the Single people "Happy Singles Awareness Day!!!"

Anyways again I’ve been thinking (and no it isn’t hard!) …about stuff, what stuff?

Well about feelings and such…I mean I’m not cold in fact I’m a "romantic", I like seeing those cute couple stuff but I can’t help but feel a nagging feeling of jealousy… I mean since it’s not happening to me and stuff.

I’ve never talked about things like these, too embarassing, but I want to. I want to talk to someone who can keep it a secret and can give me advice concerning my feelings toward him, lucky for me I have two trustworthty friends to talk with about my love life…or lack of one.

Right now I’m talking to my computer, specifically my blog. After having three entries about him in my personal journal/drawing notebook I guess typing it up would help.

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It’s 8:30pm and I’m sitting in a large comfy black office chair, wrapped around me is my new mocha colored blanket(from my sis!) and I’m debating to what I’m going to do tomorrow.  Act cute and innocent, laugh like a lady, act like "her"?

Often times I debate, mentally of course, about those things. After all I’m only human and I’m bound to make mistakes, the secret is to never let them know you did one. Which is what I do and of course poker face never fails, masks and the art of deception are my allies, I’m a bit manipulative in a subtle way too.

I make subtle signs, I wonder if he noticed them, if he even cared. Or what could have been his reaction if I told him I liked him, for quite sometime already. That’s what I hate myself for, when I get a crush it lasts too long!

Anyways, what could be his REACTION!!! Reaction is very important! Would he be disgusted? Would he shrug it off? Will he distance himself(not like he’s that close to begin with)? Will he say he likes me too?  Will he be happy, annoyed, irritated, glad??? What?! that’s what I need to know.  Because you know what? I’m scared. Scared of what might come out. Scared that he might not really like me at all. Just Scared….

Maybe things should stay the way they are? But I don’t want it. Everytime I see him, I think of soooo many things to say. And again a new question pops up!

Why do I like him so much? Love? Maybe not really sure but definitely this is a very strong like like.

Fine, I admit he IS CUTE! In his own way, but cute nonetheless. He is nice sometimes…Smart, he is. Funny, simple and yet a captivating quality.

Well, I find him really…what’s that word? Attractive?He is but not the word. Intoxicating? Maybe but not quite. Hypnotizing? Might be getting close? Maybe "magical"? I guess it could be that. I mean I’m being entranced by things he does just like magic…Sweet Lovable Magic!

It’s scary of what he has against me. My own feelings. If he knew I could be nothing but a puddle of goo ready to be a servant…Oh bugger, I’m getting overly mushy but I can’t help it. It’s something that one can use against me. My feelings. And it hurts, for him to use it against me without  him even knowing, which somehow hurts even more. I wish I could cry, but I can’t do anything more than pout, maybe a few flashes of sadness in my eyes, fake smiles…but I really wish he’d do something to make me cry, to give me courage to spill it out. To just let it go and not regret it…

But right now I’m content to his presence and to whatever friendship he has given me rights to…I’m going to enjoy whatever little joyous moments I have.

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Music: Every Little Thing ( He Does is Magic) by MYMP-a perfect song!-

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Definitely needed to get that out of my system anyways, I’m done with things like things(for the time being) and I’m ready  to tackle other tasks!!! Ja Ne!

~OWN INTRODUCTION~

Such a title shows a shoujo kind of anime, where things are sugary sweet and so very cliché.

But to inform all viewers, this anime is not what it seems. Princess Tutu is a shoujo anime since the main character usually battles through a dance, ballet to be exact. However, it does not follow the usual "magical girl shoujo" genre, it may have been its base but throughout the progression of the story it breaks its moulds and turns into a mixed genre anime.

The animation is also splendid, high quality. Each dance scene shows the characters emotion, it captivates viewers with a soft light effect giving of a glow and a few sparkles.

And in addition to all these, Princess Tutu is one of the original plotted animes I’ve known, telling stories and showing emotions in different ways such as ballet dances, narrative story-telling and conversations between characters.

~Plot Line~

Princess Tutu is a story about the darker version of fairy tales, and about reality, and the way they complement and contradict one another.  It is appropriately bizarre, but not much more bizarre than an actual ballet (or folktale) and for this reason, intrinsically beautiful.  This anime asks all the questions magical girl anime rarely ask about the nature of the heroine and of her quest, and answers them in a manner that is complex, poignant, and bittersweet.  It takes some active engagement to enjoy, for this story incorporates a multitude of elements working together in a structure that is as intricate and harmonious as the inner workings of a clock.

~How it Starts~

The story starts off with an old looking book page, illustrating the story which began it all. And a voice starts to narrate:

"Once upon a time a story titled "The Prince and the Raven" is written by an eccentric story teller who dies before completing the tale. The characters, eternally locked in conflict, become sick of the story never ending.  In frenzied disgust, the raven flies out of the story into reality, and the prince follows in pursuit.  The raven is sealed when the prince’s heart is shattered, but the prince loses his feelings as a result, the shards drifting among the people living in the little German town where the story was written. The town and its members are affected, the enchantment of a storybook entering their world altering reality so that fairytales and reality become blurred without anyone noticing what happened.  As these bizarre events occur, the author of the story, who is supposed to be dead, mutters and stirs. "

And the story begins…

~Who am I really Ahiru? Tutu? …or am I really just a duck?~

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Though "Princess Tutu" is not a popular anime I recomend you to watch it. It really shows that the barrier between reality and fiction is as thin as a thread.

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Characters and other Information will be posted later…~Also a new photo album solely dedicated to Princess Tutu has now been published. Photos will be added within time.~