Reality…

Most think I don’t know reality…it’s just often times I ignore it and make my own beliefs.

But I really do know what reality is. Or rather what reality does.

Reality in the crudest sense makes everything suck.

Yes, reality sucks.

I know that…

I knew that a long, long…looong time ago.

People think I don’t.

Just shows how much people know me. *insert sarcasticness here*

But you know just because I tend to be on the childish-I-believe-everyone-is-good side of my life doesn’t mean I don’t know reality, in fact it’s because I know reality that’s why I lean on that side.

Ever since I was a kid, I knew these things, I was more mature in that sense but as I learned that these kinds of things were unnatural to a kid I tried to hide it, over doing the childish bit, hence being looked upon as a frolicsome little girl.

I was jealous before because of what others had, I knew it was reality’s doing. And how I hated reality.

I tried to hide from it.

But it was no use reality was everywhere!

Well that just seemed stupid…I mean reality is really everywhere I mean it is our lives, it’s where we live…

But then I noticed if I thought and did what I knew, I can erase reality even for just a little while…if I can just believe that everybody is how I want them to be then I can relax.

I always have my guard up, planning silently…I can only count a few times when I let every guard down.

I hated it when people thought I wouldn’t get them because I was oblivious to things like these. Because I know, I’m not naive. I know what to do and what to think when I’m in some situation.

So please don’t tell me to face facts, to see that there’s a world beyond what I know because you don’t really know where my world is. I know where reality and fiction cuts off. There’s a thin line separating them and I know where it is.

I’m not dumb or naive. I know what life is when reality is concerned, I’ve had my share of reality’s stupid ways…so there…please think before you say anything.